Sow

The computer plays music from earlier in the year. It seems impossible that this was mere months ago, does it not feel a lifetime? But then, a few days ago you stood with your neck bowing into the noose, does that not feel miles away, too? You come out of it like a food poisoning: your head feels lighter, but any brazen food across your lips has the potential to send you tumbling back to the bathroom floor. You do not recognize your body, do not recognize the weary, pale being avoiding your eyes in the mirror. You know you'll have to deal with that eventually. We'll all have plenty to deal with, better start your to do lists.

You cannot hide from the great sadnesses of life,
simply because you're being reminded of how you miss the joys.